Caleb (#Caleb) - The Whole Truth and Nothing But...

Caleb 

I haven't written about my IMAGINARY Boyfriend Caleb in a while... I thought I had some sort of writer's block.

Or...  I realized the honeymoon period had ended.

Or...I felt like I was done with that story.

Or...  ;)

I was a bit fascinated that a good number of people that I knew (even a majority of close friends, actually) thought that Caleb was real. A handful knew right off I was story-telling, and had played along quite well. Most messaged me or waited until I saw them in person to ask: 'Is Caleb... real?'

I loved that I got so detailed in my storytelling and having so much fun with it, that it actually threw a good number of those I knew. But, I feel bad that I somehow duped friends and all, even though I was completely transparent and used the word 'Imaginary' every time I posted about My IMAGINARY BOYFRIEND Caleb. My Caleb has not been real. Only 'Imaginary', as I had been saying. Where did this come from? I can chalk it up to:

• Living in the mountains of Wrightwood where there's few to no choices in the nearby vicinity for L'amour. 
• Source of creativity. Gosh, I had such a good time coming up with stories about the things we did, the gifts he bought me, and how he really was my 'ideal'...truly. 
• After 6+ years of no dating, etc, it was an interesting diversion for make believe out there in the social media world. 

Caleb 'Caleb' #Caleb was a combination of different guys... If I actually ended up with a boy cat (again) not long ago (2 years), as a namesake, it was to be named Caleb. Murphy's a whole 'nother story that I'll get to another time... 

But 'Caleb' is comprised of 4:

1. A straight guy acquaintance that I'll keep a mystery.
2. Caleb 'BeastMode Cowboy' from Big Brother Season 16 and Survivor Season 32.
3. Cal (Caleb) - James Dean from 'East of Eden', his first feature film.

4. But the majority of my Caleb boyfriend prototype goes to:

Caleb was from Survivor, Season 27 'Blood vs. Water'. He was voted 14th out on Day 29 (out of 39).

He died a tragic death in 2014 at the age of 26, involving a train derailment, while working for the Alabama Warrior railway. 

No longer with us, but Caleb was a sweet and generous type. Most on the show were impressed with him as a person, and bewildered that he was enfianced with what most would've considered a villain of the game, Colton.

My heart goes out to him, his family, and the memories he left behind.

Didn't think this would take this turn, did you?

Again, just a prototype for me, and a good example of an ideal BF I would strive for in a relationship.

After 6+ years of no dating, but maybe thinking about someone kinda special, I've been hesitant, but remind myself of these lyrics from Pink's 'Try':

So... the jig is up on my IMAGINARY world (for some). There isn't really a BF of mine named Caleb, and hasn't been. But there is a canvas print of Caleb B. in my home, honoring a real special and sweet guy I had never met and hold a good thought for... RIP Caleb. 

And...in the end, may we all either: 

1. Find Love, the best match that's suited for us, or 

2. Love the ones we're with and appreciate them... , or 

3. Both. 

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RIP Caleb